| I hate when people talk about sorry not
meaning anything. Because right now, you
saying you're sorry would mean the world to me.
I don't know what to do. I've tried time and time
again to move on, but your smile gets me everytime.
I can't help it. I love your smile and the way even
when you're mad, you care about my feelings.
This feeling, the one of loving and hating someone
so much at the same time, it's both crazy and insane,
and my favorite feeling in the world.
My friends have given up hooking me up with
anyone else because they know I'm still so in love
with you.
Happy Halloween guys! I'm being Taylor Swift for Halloween :D |
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| I can't shake this feeling that something great is going to
happen. That all of this pain and heartache was for something.
Something good is meant to happen with us, I know it.
I'm afraid to be optimistic and positive because I'm afraid
people will think I'm stupid. Living in this world, I'm afraid to
want anything more than the basics. I'm afraid to dream
because disappointment will kill me.
I've stopped trying to be the girl you want to me. It took me
a while to realize, but I now know that being the best version
of myself should be enough.
I'm counting the days till I'll see you agian. Why is it when I'm
with you, it never seems to last long? But apart, I can't get through
the day fast enough.
I'm afraid to let anyone else in because I'm afraid they'll replace
you. I'm afraid to forget because I know memories are all I have left.
Sorry, just my thoughts written down.
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| Don't you hate when you try so hard to stop feeling a certain way, but it keeps coming back to you again and again. Over 2 and a half years now of off and on again. And at times, it feels like it goes away completely. But apparently not, because it always comes back so easily. I just...like, is this ever going to stop? |
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| Love doesn't wait. It doesn't wait for you to
decide you're ready. It hits you unexpectedly
and whether you're willing or not.
I've finally figured out exactly what it is I want.
Too bad it's finally out of my reach.
It's almost easy sometimes. But then for a
split second it's so terribly difficult. I can't keep
missing you this way. |
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| It's sorta like I gave you the key to my heart
and you lost it. And I kept making copies because
I wanted to let you in.
I'm optimistic, but I'm not stupid. And if you push
me away one too many times, eventually I'm not
going to come back.
Some dreams aren't meant to come true. Nice
realization right? Yeah, I learned that from you.
I was like that stupid blow up clown that no matter
how many times you hit it, or how hard you hit it,
it always came back up. I was never down for too
long. But that boy came around and popped me.
I hate when I try to remember the good things
that happened. Lately, it's as if they never happened.
I can't remember what it was like to have you look
at me and smile.
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